Neglected Calling

"We are going about the business of our callings, perhaps, let us look up to God in the first place, for wisdom and grace to manage them well, in the fear of God, and to abide with him in them; and then we may in faith beg of him to prosper and succeed us in them, to strengthen us for the services of them, to support us under the fatigues of them, to direct the designs of them, and to give us comfort in the gains of them. We have journeys to go, it may be, let us look up to God for his presence with us, and go not whither, where we cannot in faith beg of God to go with us".
Matthew Henry - The Secret of Communion with God

This paragraph was the very first thing I read this morning and I could go no farther. The words leaped off the page and summed up for me what should be my prayer as a wife and mother of three young children. It has been a season where fatigue has taken over and grumbling is settling in my heart. A season were I daily lose sight of the purpose of my calling and neglect to ask for strength from God. A season where in my heart and actions I could not beg in faith for God to come with me. What a foolish sinner I am that I would daily neglect to go before God and beg of him what only he can provide for the calling that he has assigned for me.

Psalm 73:25-26
Whom have I in heaven but you?
And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Thank you God that you and only you are my strength and my portion in this season. Thank you for strengthening me with your Word when I am weak. Thank you for the blessings that come with the calling of being a wife and mother. And thank you that you have not called me to do it alone.